How did I end up suffering the pains and insecurities of Jung Sun the way he feels them? Writernim and Pdnim must be doing their job and seriously letting viewers root for the protagonist while showing his emotional traumas and weaknesses. It has been a couple of weeks since I felt that the drama was slipping from the expectation I had after watching from episode 1 up to the romance part where it all feels beautiful. When they decide to go deeper to what the CEO feels towards Hyun Soo and made his character a little bit disappointing I started to lose interest in watching the subbed version right after it was shared the next day. I let time passes by and just take my time until when it will be convenient to watch the next episode. I feel that CEO Park has been disrespectful of the relationship between Jung Sun and Hyun Soo when he continues to pursue his own feelings in a selfish way. The moment he cannot figure out what matters most between friendship and business or how they started first, I somehow lose whatever fondness I have for CEO Park and go all the way to support my adorable Jung Sun. I felt that Jung Sun was being cornered by the writer making him helpless while seeing his restaurant lose customers and then CEO Park started to meddle with the business. I know he has shares and he has a right to make an appeal to Jung Sun to do reality check and make improvements but what makes him more confident in meddling was triggered by the fact that Hyun Soo is in love with Jng Su. He is trying to sway or shake the confidence of Jung Sun and Hyun Soo as well regarding their work. I am not happy the way the story is going and I am really pissed that a man of CEO Park can be stubborn to see that he has been long defeated when it comes to making Hyun Soo his woman.
But of course, Jung Sun and Hyun Soo still have the power to lure me into watching the recent episodes despite the heavy feeling that stays in my heart. Seeing both try hard to stay connected, to be trusting of each other make up for the emotional stress I feel about the storyline. But then again, writer strikes again let Hyun Soo’s mother sick who needs surgery asap. Just when Jung Sun was firmly telling Hyun Soo that he is not going anywhere, CEO Park becomes the only person who can help the family move up the surgery because of his connections to the hospital where Hyun Soo’s mom stays. How ironic that the last man Hyun Soo wants to go to for help became the hero from her family’s point of view. While Jung Sun who never go for favors from his father begged for assistance and got rejected. It tore my heart to see him trying and fail. That the only thing he can do is what he is best doing… cook healthy foods for Hyun Soo’s love ones. To make them strong physically despite the emotional turmoil they are suffering.
But what was that scene where the family all gathered and look grateful with all smiles towards CEO Park Jung Sun witnessed? Gosh! That scene was like a salt on a wound. Jung Sun felt incapable. He felt lacking in financial assistance. He is trying but not enough. The family however is not aware that they are acting insensitive towards him. Even Hyun Soo’s dad seems patronizing when Jung Sun went to the hospital and gave them lunch box.
I felt Jung Sun has lost his balance figuratively seeing the scene in front of his eyes. There was no room for him inside that hospital room. He was the outcast. He felt an outsider. He felt he is not Hyun Soo’s boyfriend. It was a moment when he realized he cannot do anything for them but CEO Park can and whatever it is will materialized. I feel frustrated once again. While I know Hyun Soo loves him too much, this is a scene that will somehow break Jung Sun’s stance in staying still by her side. I hate this development although this is temporary. It may not mean anything anymore to CEO Park but the damage has been done. Park may feel indecisive after his talk with Jung Sun’s mother about how he loves him as a brother or that Hyun Soo is not the only woman out there, that he may now let Hyun Soo go. Jung Sun has come to terms in that moment by the hospital door. He could be thinking he is not the right person for Hyun Soo. And I fear he would take a step back.
I wish to see his smiles. I really felt his self-esteem lowering. It’s true…love is not simply about loving each other. It has to endure, it has to be strong for both and it should be trusting amidst all odds. When outside force shakes love between two people, sometimes even the most sounding mind or judgement are clouded and that is the time that reasoning must be heard or else all will crumble.
Am I in for another twist in the drama? Will love tire itself out? Oh please writernim, have mercy on us viewers. Jung Sun’s pain is killing me. CEO Park annoys me. Ottokeo?